I just love this...

I stole this little picture from Holly. How funny is this!

Just for the record.

I am not a crazy person! Sometime between now and Monday Holly may be posting a blog saying some wacky things about me, but I swear, I'm not crazy. Yes I may have been a little over excited about finding J.R.Ward's Lover Awakened at Walmart but again, I'm not crazy! I swear. Yes I *might* have yelled (just a bit, and quietly) when I saw it on the shelf, and done a little jump (really it was barely noticeable) but again, I'm not crazy. And even though I argued with the guy in Borders Express because he had 8 copies in the back and wouldn't sell me one since it's not the release date, I'm not crazy. And lastly even though tomorrow I will be going back to Borders Express and showing the stupid guy the book that I did get even tough it isn't the release date yet. I'M NOT CRAZY! So there.....

I'm out for a bit...*edited*

**had to add one more vidio, it's at the end and it's the best one! So watch it!**
Well my husbands vacations started today so I won't be posting as much. I start my vacation on Monday. When JD's home I don't get to be on the computer as much. And we'll probably be taking some day trips with the kids to different places.

So in leaving you for a bit I have these videos for you......they are of my most favorite show Grey's Anatomy. To either refresh your memory of the best show and get you as excited as I am for Sep. 21. Or to show you what your missing and get you excited to watch it for the first time. Cause if this isn't one of your shows, you are soooo missing out!

Why I love this show....


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Why I love Berk....


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THE BEST ONE!!!


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I'm baaaacccckkkkk!

HI everyone! I'm back. OMG I hate not having service. It really sucks. You don't know how much I missed being here. I have so many blogs to catch up on. I hope you all have good stuff for me to go read now. lol.
I really had it out with Comcast.
We had a huge storm on Friday night and it knocked out our phone and Internet service. We didn't get to call about it till Sunday since J had his B-day party and all on Saturday. So anyway, we call and they have us do all these tests and all on the computer and it still didn't work, so they said they'd send a technician out on Monday between 3 and 7. Don't you know after I spend my entire afternoon at home waiting they show up at 6:45. Uggg. The guy comes in does his thing, goes outside and does his thing and tells us that it's a outside line and it's there fault. Duh. And they will have my service up by that night.
Tuesday morning rolls around and guess what??? No service! I wanna kill them. So after being on hold for 25 min. talking to three people for a total of an hour I get told that it will be done within 24 hours. Well I'm not happy about waiting but okay.
Surprise surprise, I wake up this morning with still NO SERVICE! And mind you my phone is out too, so I'm running up all kinds of minutes on my cell phone. After again talking forever to two different people guess what I'm told????? "sorry mama, but you should be talking to a different department" What the FUCK!!!! Are you kidding me? After 5 freaking days they are only telling me this NOW???? I wanted to hurt someone. I flipped on the manager, yup that's right I got the manager on the phone. I'm all "do you even train your workers???? Why am I only getting this information now???" Totally flipped. Anyway, after talking to the RIGHT department it was fixed within 2 hours. They bumped it up to priority and had a technician come right out.

So tell me. Did you miss me and all my ranting and complaining??? Cause let me tell you I'm all bottled up here, I've got a lot more to vent about. lol. Stay tuned.

**Oh and by the way I'm talking on the phone to Rene when I took that picture of myself. lol.

JD and my birthday dinner

He's such a cutie isn't he!
Monday was my birthday, as you all know, so JD said we'd go out for dinner. My mom and sister came over to stay with the kids. I wanted to go to The Cheesecake Factory. JD swears he knows how to get there. Did her? Nope....Did he let me call a freind to ask how to get there? Nope. Okay so you may think I was getting annoyed but really for some reason I wasn't. But I was really really hungry. So finally after a million wrong turns I get to call someone. Turns out we did pass it once. Don't know how, it is huge. But anyway. We get in at around 7:10pm, they say it's a 15-30 min. wait. Okay, I can handle that.
.....35 min. later......I walk up to the hostess and ask when we're gonna be seated, we have been there over the time she told me. She says they are a little backed up and it should be 10 more minutes.
........15 min. later.......I'm getting pissed! I am hungry! It's my damn birthday! FEED ME!!!! I get kinda bitchy when I'm hungry.
FINALLY after over an hour wait we are seated.
From this point on there is really no complaints. We got to sit outside, which made me happy. It was freezing inside. We got these really yummy buffalo chicken appetizers, they were like shredded buffalo chicken fried served with hot sauce and blue cheese. We both go Mojitos (did I spell that right???), JD got this yummy orange glazed chicken, and I got Jamaican Black bean Shrimp with Mango salsa. See told you I love anything mango. Ha ha. Then I got Key Lime cheese cake. OMG to die for. I hate cheese cake, but this??? You couldn't even tell. It was sooo freaking good. We didn't end up getting home till around 10pm. But we had a good time. We don't get to go out alone much, so it was a nice birthday treat.

Dear Jazz's Readers,

This is a sticky!

Hey everyone, Dylan from Coffee House Banter (on Jazz's sidebar) here, just stopping by to let you guys know that Jazz is having issues with her internet connection at home, so until she gets her crap fixed, she won't be around much on the blog front...so ha ha on you guys, I get to talk to her all the time and keep in touch with her until she gets back and you don't, okay I'm just kidding, but she's promised to try to get her stuff fixed on the home front and come back and soon as she can.

Have a good day, week or however long it takes for Jazz to fix her internet!

Sincerely,
Dylan on behalf of Jazz.

A link to my girl with a little added to it.....Porn - yay or nay.

So my girl Holly posted this blog up and I wanna expound on it a bit. She asks what you think of porn. Yay, nay? What's your thoughts?

Well I also wanna know. First do you think it's an okay thing? Do you dislike it if others watch it? Do you have a preference, you know like the kind you order on TV where they 'pretend' to do things but never really do. Or the live porn stuff that you see mostly online. And how bout pictures vs. videos? Or even stories, it's basically the same thing.

So basically I'm asking the same things as Holly but just a little more in depth.

Me? I'll admit the truth, I look at it online occasionally, I'd prefer to read it though. I don't know why. I think I just like to imagine it myself more. I'd prefer my husband not look at it, but I'm not stupid I know he does on occasion. I know it's a double standard to say I do but don't want him to. But somehow (sexist or not) I think a girl can look at it every once in awhile and whatever. But a guy? I think they get addicted. And I feel like if he's looking at that then being with me .... well I sure as hell don't look like the porn stars, so is he picturing someone else? Give me info on this guys!

What Were You Expecting?: Silly MM and A Question...

My Story...

Well I wanted to blog about 'what if's' in life but I figured I'd give you my story first. Then talk about 'what if's' since I seem to run them through my head sometimes, about my own life.

I grew up in a Christian home, I was always at church functions, youth group the whole nine yards. And I loved it, I wasn't one of those kids forced into going, I had great friends, and my church was fun. I wasn't a naive teen either, although I went to a Christian school I lived in the City. I had lots of friends in my neighborhood, so believe me I wasn't sheltered. So anyway, I had boyfriends, lots of boyfriends, but I was never the girl that went 'all the way' with the guys, and they knew it. I never experimented with drugs, but for some odd reason I dated (if you can call it that, we just made out never went anywhere) a few guys that sold them. I always felt like I could be the one to 'save them from their ways'. lol.

Moving on to when I was 16....I meet JD at church. He was dating another girl. Actually the sister of a friend of mine, but I didn't know her. I actually thought JD's brother was cute and was looking at him. Well after JD and his girlfriend broke up he and I started to talk. Just as friends but it soon became apparent that we were both attracted to each other. So March 21, 1998 JD and I were officially a couple. Now this in my mind would be my first real boyfriend. Not the first guy I kissed or made out with or anything like that. But the first boyfriend to take me out on dates, take me to his house to meet the family. You know all that. He had just turned 17 the beginning of that month and I was to turn 17 in August.

We dated with only two break-ups through our junior year in high school and through our senior year too. We'd talk about marriage in general terms, such as we knew we'd always be together so of course one day we'd marry. But we didn't go looking at rings, and I never asked him about it. For that matter I never really thought about it much. But about a month after we graduated, on June, 30, 1999 I was proposed to. Now I'm not going to go into it all right now, I'll do a separate post on that. But anyway....on with the story.

My parents had gotten married when my dad was 20 and my mom 18. They are still together, 27 years now. JD's parents got married a lot later in life, his dad was married before and had two kids from that marriage. So needless to say my parents voice their concerns on us being so young, but were happy for us and gave us their blessing. JD's parents were sooooo far from happy it wasn't even funny. They basically flipped. There were family meetings over this and the whole nine yards. But we were young and determined to do what we wanted. So the wedding date was set.

July, 8, 2000 I was married! It was so much fun. The new Condo, my own furniture and yard, and bills (yes bills, I was excited to have my own. lol) just everything. We had decided before we got married to wait 5 years to have kids. After we got married we shortened it to 2 years. Then a couple we knew were having a lot of trouble getting pregnant and supposedly at the time the doctor thought it could have been her birth control and all this stuff. So JD and I got scared and basically decided to leave it to nature and not take any birth control.......Our first Christmas.....I take a pregnancy test.....I'm pregnant! Merry Christmas everyone! We were soooo happy! J was born August 21, 2001. J's first birthday comes and ..... I take another pregnancy test.....I'm pregnant again! And this time it was a shock, I was on Birth control. Granted they were a very low dosage (since I had just stopped nursing J), and I was horrible at remembering all the time, but still we were shocked. I got over my shock fast and was happy again. JD took a bit more to get used to the fact that we were going to have two kids 21 months apart. March 30, 2003 A was born.

So now I've been married 6 years, with a 5 year old, and 3 1/2 year old. And I am only 25 (or will be in 5 days) and sometimes I just wonder....."What if..." I didn't get married, what if JD and I just dated and we each went off to college? Would we have ended up married eventually? Would I have my babies? Would I be living in Jersey? Would I be richer? Who would I be with? All these what if's. It can boggle the mind, it really can. I try not to dwell on it much but for some reason today it was just on my mind. I love my husband to death, and my children too. I wouldn't trade them for the world. I have so much to be thankful for and I am but sometimes you just have to wonder....what if......don't you?

Top 100 ~ Stole this from Holly.

I have nothing to blog about so I took this from our blog over at SF, Holly had done it. And here is mine. All the bold ones I've read, and the italic ones I own but haven't gotten to.

1. Lord of Scoundrels by Loretta Chase
2. Flowers From the Storm by Laura Kinsale
3. Welcome to Temptation by Jennifer Crusie
4. As You Desire by Connie Brockway
5. Bet Me by Jennifer Crusie
6. Dreaming of You by Lisa Kleypas
7. Outlander by Diana Gabaldon
8. Over the Edge by Suzanne Brockmann
9. All Through the Night by Connie Brockway
10. Sea Swept by Nora Roberts
11. It Had to be You by Susan Elizabeth Phillips
12. A Summer to Remember by Mary Balogh
13. Morning Glory by LaVyrle Spencer
14. The Proposition by Judith Ivory
15. A Kingdom of Dreams by Judith McNaught
16. Ravished by Amanda Quick
17. Frederica by Georgette Heyer
18. Mrs. Drew Plays Her Hand by Carla Kelly
19. MacKenzie's Mountain by Linda Howard
20. Mr. Perfect by Linda Howard
21. The Grand Sophy by Georgette Heyer
22. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
23. The Bride by Julie Garwood
24. Devil's Bride by Stephanie Laurens
25. To Have and to Hold by Patricia Gaffney
26. Born in Fire by Nora Roberts
27. Winter Garden by Adele Ashworth
28. Gone Too Far by Suzanne Brockmann
29. The Viscount Who Loved Me by Julia Quinn
30. Saving Grace by Julie Garwood
31. My Dearest Enemy by Connie Brockway
32. In the Midnight Rain by Barbara Samuel
33. The Windflower by Laura London
34. Naked in Death by J.D. Robb
35. Whitney, My Love by Judith McNaught
36. Nobody's Baby but Mine by Susan Elizabeth Phillips
37. A Knight in Shining Armor by Jude Deveraux
38. Paradise by Judith McNaught
39. The Shadow and the Star by Laura Kinsale
40. Dream Man by Linda Howard
41. Out of Control by Suzanne Brockmann
42. Silk and Shadows by Mary Jo Putney
43. See Jane Score by Rachel Gibson
44. Shattered Rainbows by Mary Jo Putney
45. Thunder and Roses by Mary Jo Putney
46. The Duke and I by Julia Quinn
47. Heart Throb by Suzanne Brockmann
48. For My Lady's Heart by Laura Kinsale
49. Honor's Splendor by Julie Garwood
50. Lord Carew's Bride by Mary Balogh
51. Untie my Heart by Judith Ivory
52. Dream a Little Dream by Susan Elizabeth Phillips
53. The Secret by Julie Garwood
54. This is All I Ask by Lynn Kurland
55. Slightly Dangerous by Mary Balogh
56. One Perfect Rose by Mary Jo Putney
57. To Love and to Cherish by Patricia Gaffney
58. Kiss an Angel by Susan Elizabeth Phillips
59. Heaven, Texas by Susan Elizabeth Phillips
60. Venetia by Georgette Heyer
61. Daughter of the Game by Tracy Grant
62. The Prize by Julie Garwood
63. Reforming Lord Ragsdale by Carla Kelly
64. Prince Joe by Suzanne Brockmann
65. The Notorious Rake by Mary Balogh
66. Heartless by Mary Balogh
67. Son of the Morning by Linda Howard
68. Sleeping Beauty by Judith Ivory
69. Where Dreams Begin by Lisa Kleypas
70. The Devil's Cub by Georgette Heyer
71. The Bronze Horseman by Paullina Simons
72. The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegar
73. With This Ring by Carla Kelly
74. The Lion's Lady by Julie Garwood
75. The Rake by Mary Jo Putney
76. Fallen from Grace by Laura Leone
77. Always to Remember by Lorraine Heath
78. Castles by Julie Garwood
79. One Good Turn by Carla Kelly
80. Chesapeake Blue by Nora Roberts
81. By Arrangement by Madeline Hunter
82. Perfect by Judith McNaught
83. My Darling Caroline by Adele Ashworth
84. The Defiant Hero by Suzanne Brockmann
85. The Unsung Hero by Suzanne Brockmann
86. Guilty Pleasures by Laura Lee Guhrke
87. Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte
88. Kill and Tell by Linda Howard
89. After the Night by Linda Howard
90. More than a Mistress by Mary Balogh
91. Born in Ice by Nora Roberts
92. Miss Wonderful by Loretta Chase
93. The Charm School by Susan Wiggs
94. Scoundrel by Elizabeth Elliott
95. How to Marry a Marquis by Julia Quinn
96. Angel Rogue by Mary Jo Putney
97. Trust Me by Jayne Ann Krentz
98. Dancing on the Wind by Mary Jo Putney
99. Once and Always by Judith McNaught
100. This Heart of Mine by Susan Elizabeth Phillips

So I've read 30 and actually own 17 of them and just haven't gotten to them. Not to bad, huh?

OMG I need HELP!

Okay here is my delima! My son is starting part time kindergarten in September, and I want to put my daughter in pre-school, and J in a after school program. I want to do that because I really think A would benefit from it and J too, they aren't around other kids much. Where we live isn't really swarming with children. And also I am sick of working retail. I want a real job. You know. I hate the hours I work, I hate working every weekend. I hate the entire atmosphere at my job. It just doesn't make me happy. Also I never have time with my entire family. I am home with the kids during the day, then JD gets home and I go to work. Yeah, the kids see us both, but we are never ALL together. So I need a real job. What do I do??? I HAVE NO FREAKING CLUE!
When I was engaged to JD I worked at a mortgage company doing clerical stuff, and then I worked at a doctors office doing medical records stuff. After that I got pregnant and have only worked part time off and on. So it's been retail. It's been about 5 years now. I am so lost. I don't know what I want to do, or what I even can do. Nothing sounds interesting, or if it does it sounds scary. I'm almost afraid to put myself out there.
I need to get on it now though. School starts in just a few weeks, and I wanted to do this all at the same time.
I never went to college, I am sorry only because a lot of jobs have that as a requirement. I don't wish I went though, I always new it wasn't for me. So I really don't know. Any suggestions? OR helpful hints? Or encouragement? SOMETHING??? Especially any other stay-at-home moms that have ventured out into the work world after so long. How did you do it? What did you do???