I'm moved!

Have you missed me? I have sooooo missed blogging. I can't wait to fully be back. I still have a ton of unpacking to do and work to adjust to.

BUT I did post a moving story over on my other blog. So go here and read it. AND DON'T LAUGH! It was very upsetting.

Be back soon. Miss everyone.

Oh and real quick listen to this conversation:
(I just turn on the radio, and Big Girls Don't Cry is on)

Abby: I like this song
Jordon: No Abby you don't, you never even heard it before.
Me: Do you know what this song is called?
Both of them: What?
Me: Big Girls Don't Cry
(a moment of silence)
Jordon: But mommy, your a big girl and you cry!

LOL!

Oh and how about Jordon trying to be cool in front of the girls in our new neighborhood.

One of the girls: DARN!
Abby: That's a bad word.
Jordon: No it's not.
Abby: Yu huh.
Jordon: (looking at the girl) Pssh, I say it all the time!
Me: Jordon! Abby is right, it is a bad word, and you don't say it! I better not hear it again from anyone.

Jordon got all shame faced. I had to walk away and laugh.

~ Nicole

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

As you all know today was Abby's birthday so Carrie, my best friend, came over for the day. She lives in Delaware so she came to both of the parties we had today (kids, and family).

Well on her way home she was listening to the radio to keep herself awake and decided what the hell let me call in to see if I win. They were giving away the last two tickets they had for a concert.

She never wins.

SHE FREAKING WON!!!!!

She was caller 102 and won 2 tickets to see CRISTINA AGULARA!!!!! And the Pussy Cat Dolls will be there too. AND SHE'S TAKING ME!!!!! It's this Tuesday! I am so freaking siked out of this world!!!!!!!!!!

So who wants to be me on Tuesday...ha ha. This will be my first concert I've ever gone to. I am so excited!!!!

Oh and Abby's Birthday was great, she got a ton of Tinker Bell stuff. The girl is obsessed with Tink. lol.

~ Nicole

Whadaya think?

I really have no reason for this post. I just wanted to post this scary picture of me. lol. So here you have it. Whadaya thing? I like this new word I put together, wadaya. lol. I'm gonna use it alot, whadaya think about that? heee heee.

Hmmm, what else? Oh wadaya know? I don't think I told anyone yet that we are moving in with my in laws for a bit. Just so we can save some money for a house. It is seriously impossible to save as you pay outrageous rent. And our rent is decent compared to everything else in our area. But still. I'm crossing my fingers cause they found a place that would be perfect for all of us, and plenty big. But the guy is worried with so many people there will be to much wear and tear on the place. But all he has to do is go look at my MIL place now, it's immaculate 24/7! There is nothing to worry about. So send all your best my way.

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Yesterday I was driving my crazy kids to the library. I had to run to drop something off at someones house and they weren't home yet, so I decided to wait there. Anyway they were fighting and yelling and I was listening to an audio book, and I kinda dazed out. Yup, I just was like looking at the road thinking 'is this it?' Screaming kids, library, audio-books, feeling fat and gross. Ick. I really wasn't liking myself or my life yesterday. I just wanted to cry.

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Yesterday my mother in law asked my daughter what she wanted for her birthday and she said a bra! WHAT? LOL. My father in law snaps out 'you don't need that yet, pick something else' while my son is asking what a bra is and Josh is telling him he doesn't need to know. lol.

Which reminded me of the other day when me and Abby were in the mall. We walked past a nail salon and she asked what they did there. When I told her she asked if she can get nails and I said when she's bigger. She says 'big like you?' after I said yes she said 'when I get big like you, will I get boobies too?'. She's obsessed! I had to stop myself from saying 'lets hope a little bigger than mine.' lol.

Oh and last but not least.....how bout when we were at Target she points to a leopard print skirt and says 'look mommy it's like your booby holder.' I wanted to die, there were a ton of people around. Ugggg......


~ Nicole

It got A LOT worse

Well after I got my keys out of my car (read here if you haven't read about that)I headed home. I needed to pack up some clothes for the kids since they were supposed to sleep at my mom's tonight, and I had an appointment to get my car inspected.

The weather outside was getting steadily worse but I never shy away from driving in anything and have never been in an accident because anything weather related. Well today was the day I guess.

As soon as I merged onto the highway I could tell it was icy, and there were cars everywhere. I had already passed two accidents. So I wasn't going fast, but as I started to move into a different lane my car started to slide.....

I totally freaked. I tried to get control of the car, I remember trying to break but then thought that would make it worse so I let up. The car just started to spin and I started to pray out loud and scream. My kids were screaming in the back seat (thank God they were in their seats) and it had to be a miracle cause I didn't' hit any other cars, it seemed like they almost disappeared during my accident.

I remember spinning out then going in the opposite direction and slamming into the guard rail and spinning again. I don't remember where I stopped just that as soon as I was done I pulled into the shoulder. I was shaking so bad and screaming to see if the kids were hurt. Jordon was crying, he hit his head on the window.

I think that was my biggest fear, what was on my mind the entire time everything was happening. I didn't' want my kids hurt or their life to end yet. I was so scared for them.

But Jordon seemed to be okay, not really a big bump or anything. So I then got out to check the damage. Well my headlight on the passenger side fell off and my front bumper was hanging on by a thread. And once I got home Josh said there was damage done to the metal under the bumper and all. NOT good.

I barley made it home since the roads were so bad and my alignment is not majorly off. But I did. I am not going to work tonight I am still really shaken.

So just pray that none of us have anything wrong. Like you know from the impact and all. My back is all tight but it might just be because I am tense from nerves. Lets hope.

~ Nicole

Abby Moment~ I wanna watch a movie...

Okay so Abby was telling me that she wanted to watch a different movie than the one I put on for her. This is exactly word for word what she said. I finally guessed it, but would you have?

Abby:When the dad makes the thing and then girl says check, then the girl goes in the house that is in the school. The girl teaches the other girl to be her. They take the stuff from the other girl. Remember I watched it when I was a little girl?! And they never saw their parents. It's a girl when she has a thing that's a rainbow for her hair.Their beds are on the roof, the girls just put whip cream on the pillow and honey on the floor and spider webs, and they got paint.

I GOT IT! THE PARENT TRAP! Don't ask how it just clicked.

Abby:
One more thing, they cut their hair.

Actually after rereading everything she said it does make sense. lol. Except for the house being in the school and a rainbow in her hair. I'm lost on that. Oh and now Abby wants to cut her hair.

~ Nicole

Abby Moment~ We don't like BOYS!

It was a normal day that I woke up and took Jordon to the bus stop. Except for the fact that I had to go food shopping later, yuck! Can't they just magically appear in the refrigerator? No? DAMN! Well okay on with the story then.

I tried to make it sound fun for Abby, "Hey we get to go to the store! And you can help me pick out all the yummy food!" She jumped right into the spirit of it "Yeah it can be girl time! Can we do make-up?"

So we do the lip gloss and blush thing and we're off. Abby is rambling in the back seat about our girl trip and how she doesn't like boys only girls. Cause girls are pretty and boys are mean.

Where did she get that? I have no clue. I swear I don't, lol.

We do our shopping and while in the snack isle Abby points to a man and says "Mommy why is HE here? This is the girl store?!" All offended of his presence. lol. So I just mumble something or other and go to another isle.

We had fun the rest of the time so when we were loading up the our food on the ramp to pay I was surprised to see her sulking. "Baby what's wrong?" Abby, "I don't want to pay here! He's a boy!" Yup, you got it the cashier was a guy and she was having none of it. lol. So I bribed her with Pink Girl Gum and we were off.

Later that day after Jordon got home I took them to Chick-fil-A, we had a friend of Jordon's with us that I was babysitting for the afternoon. I think Abby was getting a little miffed that the boys weren't paying much attention to her, but she was fine for the most part with the boys. Considering her no boys day she was having.

A couple of hours later when we were home I was up in my room on the computer and the kids were playing in the other room with toys. Alls fine till I hear Jordon screaming! He comes out of his room running for me....his lip is busted! I of course freak and am demanding answers. All I get is that Abby threw a toy at him. So she goes to time out.

Side note here: How do you punish a little girl that every time she gets set to her room just decides "Oh what the hell I'm tired anyway" and takes a nap! No she doesn't really say what the hell, but you get my drift. I'll tell her her time out is done and she's all "No I'm tired" and she just takes a nap! Brat!

Anyway back to the story.

It wasn't till later when I was showering for work and Jordon came to talk to me that I found this tid bit out....

Jordon: Mommy, do you know why Abby threw my power ranger at me?(she used his own toy against him!)
Me: No honey why?
Jordon: Cause she said she doesn't like boys.


~ Nicole

Christmas 2006, part 4

Read Part 1, Part 2, and Part 3



Okay, okay I know it's been a long time coming. You know, this final part of my Christmas Story. So here it is ... 7:30am and I haven't even slept 5 full hours but my kids are up and yelling for me.




Normally they would just get up and come to my room but that would mean walking through the living room that the tree was in. I guess they wanted me to be there with them. So I went to their rooms and we walked out together. They were sooo excited when they saw all the presents. lol, then they ran upstairs to wake Josh up.



It was so funny cause Abby was opening gifts sooo fast so she had almost all her gifts open and Jordon was on like his third.


But they had a great time. By 11:30am we were on our way to my parents house. My mom hooked me up with a few sweaters and jeans from my favorite store NY&C, sneakers, and slippers. My sisters got me a gift card to get a pedi/mani (soooo excited about this!) a new purse and wristlet! Love my sistas. My brother didn't do gifts since he is jobless but he cooked us all a fabulous brunch. If he wasn't going to school to be some political big wig I'd say he should be a world renowned chef. The boy can cook! lol.

Anyway, of course they got Josh and the kids good stuff too. But hey we're gonna make that part about me.

After hanging with my family some more we headed over to Josh's parents house for dinner, an Eagles game and some more gifts. Fun fun. lol.

Usually my mother in law takes us out shopping and we just pick out our own gifts. This year I guess she thought she'd give it a shot on her own. All I can say is she got the gist of it right. I loved the two sweaters from NY&C she got me, can't go wrong in that store, but the rest? Well I wanted a robe, I got one, most uncomfortable material ever though. I wanted a track suit, got one in again the most horrible material. PJ's? To small, that's always embarrassing. lol. And to top it all off she got us a new bed set. Josh told me about it before Christmas and showed me what it looked like and I told him I didn't like it at all. He told her and she still gave it to us, which just made for some uncomfortable moments when I asked her for the receipt for it cause I didn't like it.

I know I sound like an ungrateful bitch here, but I'm not. Really. haha. I love my in laws. And my mother in law is great, she always over does it. But I don't know that she really does all that great on her own, picking gifts. We work better as a team. Although she was the ONLY one that remembered I collect Willow Tree Figurines. She got me the Wisdom one that is of a girl sitting down reading a book. Perfect for me.

And she did a ton of great outfits for the kids among other things.

Later that night we went to go home but had to swing by my parents house cause I forgot my phone there earlier. Well we ended up playing a card game called canasta from 9:30pm to 1:30am! lol, but it was lots of fun.

2:00am we unloaded all the gifts from our car and called it a night.

And a GREAT Christmas was had by all.




~ Nicole

What's up with me?

So I have nothing to blog about today or yesterday or the day before that for any matter. But I missed you all so I figured what the heck, I'll just ramble for a bit.
So what's been going on with me? Hmmm, well yesterday Renee came over my house! Yup our very own Rene Lyons, gotta lover her. Her little girl is soooo cute, OMG I feel in love, and A loved her. J too, but her and A? What a pair. Rene is soooo freaking sweet, and her major plus???? SHE HAS PERFECT EYEBROWS. Yes I said eyebrows. Hey, don't think I'm weird! Everyone has that one thing they notice first when meeting a person, and eyebrows just happen to be my thing. So I'm all kinds of jealous of hers, they are PERFECT, no joke.
I got banned off a board. I am not kidding. Dylan had posted some questions on JR Wards board about her books. You know, how there are some gay undertones in her book and she didn't think the slang fit the persona of the characters. Stuff like that. But OMG they tore her up. So I went to defend my girl.....and now we're both banned from there. ha ha ah. Check our book blog Sanctuary's Finest with in the week to read all about it, from me, Dylan and Holly. It'll be great.
A is dancing. And OMG she is soooo cute, and she loves it. It is only for an hour once a week. I wish it were more cause every day she asks 'mommy do I have dance today?'. lol.
Next Friday I go on J's first school trip! Yeay, I asked him if he wanted me to go and he said yes. Sooooo I'm going. Now you'd think I'd be all kinds of excited about this but really I'm not. I mean yeah, it'll be fun to go with my son, but I'll be in charge of 4 kids total. I don't like other peoples kids! Soooo true. For some reason I have no tolerance for them. So I'll have to keep you posted on how that goes.
My husband just got a BIG raise!!! Soooo happy about that. He actually got offered a job for another company doing the same thing but he'd be a manager instead of a supervisor. Well when he told his boss they counteroffer. So we're all happy now. Sice the company he is with now has always been good to us and he has seniority there and all.
Me? I'm still stuck in my job I hate. Uggg, but I kinda don't want to leave till after Christmas. I mean I know it'll get more stressful and all but I love the busyness around the holidays. Not to mention the commission check will be huge.

Well that's it on me for now. What's going on with all you? Have any ideas on things I can post on? I'm having such a block right now.

Oh Jesus it hurts!

Okay I really don't even have time to post right now but I just had to pop in here and tell you what I did to my poor hand just 20 minutes ago.

I went to pick something up at a friends house and when I went to leave I realized I couldn't buckle myself. I had shut the door on my seat belt. So I open the door to pull the seat belt up and shut the door. Only one problem.....

My hand was holding the seat belt up so high it was acually in the doors way. I crushed my hand, MY ENTIRE FIST, in the door. In my FORD EXPLORER DOOR! Oh good Lord it hurt. As soon as I did it I was like "*!@ GOD! Oh Jesus..." and A goes "Mommy why are you saying Jesus?"

Now I'm the tpye of person when I'm in pain I cannot have any noise. Yeah, you should have seen me in the labor and delivery room, that's a funny story! But I digress. So I say "Quiet quiet baby, mommy just needs to pray for a little bit." Then I proceeded with "Jesus, Jesus, Oh goodness it hurts..." You know normal cryin'. I had to tell my kids I was praying cause I was saying Jesus, which technically I was. Praying for the pain to stop.

It's not so horribly bad now. But I know I'm gonna be bruised. Ouch!

My Story...

Well I wanted to blog about 'what if's' in life but I figured I'd give you my story first. Then talk about 'what if's' since I seem to run them through my head sometimes, about my own life.

I grew up in a Christian home, I was always at church functions, youth group the whole nine yards. And I loved it, I wasn't one of those kids forced into going, I had great friends, and my church was fun. I wasn't a naive teen either, although I went to a Christian school I lived in the City. I had lots of friends in my neighborhood, so believe me I wasn't sheltered. So anyway, I had boyfriends, lots of boyfriends, but I was never the girl that went 'all the way' with the guys, and they knew it. I never experimented with drugs, but for some odd reason I dated (if you can call it that, we just made out never went anywhere) a few guys that sold them. I always felt like I could be the one to 'save them from their ways'. lol.

Moving on to when I was 16....I meet JD at church. He was dating another girl. Actually the sister of a friend of mine, but I didn't know her. I actually thought JD's brother was cute and was looking at him. Well after JD and his girlfriend broke up he and I started to talk. Just as friends but it soon became apparent that we were both attracted to each other. So March 21, 1998 JD and I were officially a couple. Now this in my mind would be my first real boyfriend. Not the first guy I kissed or made out with or anything like that. But the first boyfriend to take me out on dates, take me to his house to meet the family. You know all that. He had just turned 17 the beginning of that month and I was to turn 17 in August.

We dated with only two break-ups through our junior year in high school and through our senior year too. We'd talk about marriage in general terms, such as we knew we'd always be together so of course one day we'd marry. But we didn't go looking at rings, and I never asked him about it. For that matter I never really thought about it much. But about a month after we graduated, on June, 30, 1999 I was proposed to. Now I'm not going to go into it all right now, I'll do a separate post on that. But anyway....on with the story.

My parents had gotten married when my dad was 20 and my mom 18. They are still together, 27 years now. JD's parents got married a lot later in life, his dad was married before and had two kids from that marriage. So needless to say my parents voice their concerns on us being so young, but were happy for us and gave us their blessing. JD's parents were sooooo far from happy it wasn't even funny. They basically flipped. There were family meetings over this and the whole nine yards. But we were young and determined to do what we wanted. So the wedding date was set.

July, 8, 2000 I was married! It was so much fun. The new Condo, my own furniture and yard, and bills (yes bills, I was excited to have my own. lol) just everything. We had decided before we got married to wait 5 years to have kids. After we got married we shortened it to 2 years. Then a couple we knew were having a lot of trouble getting pregnant and supposedly at the time the doctor thought it could have been her birth control and all this stuff. So JD and I got scared and basically decided to leave it to nature and not take any birth control.......Our first Christmas.....I take a pregnancy test.....I'm pregnant! Merry Christmas everyone! We were soooo happy! J was born August 21, 2001. J's first birthday comes and ..... I take another pregnancy test.....I'm pregnant again! And this time it was a shock, I was on Birth control. Granted they were a very low dosage (since I had just stopped nursing J), and I was horrible at remembering all the time, but still we were shocked. I got over my shock fast and was happy again. JD took a bit more to get used to the fact that we were going to have two kids 21 months apart. March 30, 2003 A was born.

So now I've been married 6 years, with a 5 year old, and 3 1/2 year old. And I am only 25 (or will be in 5 days) and sometimes I just wonder....."What if..." I didn't get married, what if JD and I just dated and we each went off to college? Would we have ended up married eventually? Would I have my babies? Would I be living in Jersey? Would I be richer? Who would I be with? All these what if's. It can boggle the mind, it really can. I try not to dwell on it much but for some reason today it was just on my mind. I love my husband to death, and my children too. I wouldn't trade them for the world. I have so much to be thankful for and I am but sometimes you just have to wonder....what if......don't you?

OMG I need HELP!

Okay here is my delima! My son is starting part time kindergarten in September, and I want to put my daughter in pre-school, and J in a after school program. I want to do that because I really think A would benefit from it and J too, they aren't around other kids much. Where we live isn't really swarming with children. And also I am sick of working retail. I want a real job. You know. I hate the hours I work, I hate working every weekend. I hate the entire atmosphere at my job. It just doesn't make me happy. Also I never have time with my entire family. I am home with the kids during the day, then JD gets home and I go to work. Yeah, the kids see us both, but we are never ALL together. So I need a real job. What do I do??? I HAVE NO FREAKING CLUE!
When I was engaged to JD I worked at a mortgage company doing clerical stuff, and then I worked at a doctors office doing medical records stuff. After that I got pregnant and have only worked part time off and on. So it's been retail. It's been about 5 years now. I am so lost. I don't know what I want to do, or what I even can do. Nothing sounds interesting, or if it does it sounds scary. I'm almost afraid to put myself out there.
I need to get on it now though. School starts in just a few weeks, and I wanted to do this all at the same time.
I never went to college, I am sorry only because a lot of jobs have that as a requirement. I don't wish I went though, I always new it wasn't for me. So I really don't know. Any suggestions? OR helpful hints? Or encouragement? SOMETHING??? Especially any other stay-at-home moms that have ventured out into the work world after so long. How did you do it? What did you do???

J&A Moment ~ Dressing Up

My kids just came out of their room all proud of themselves. They got dressed without me! Yeay!!!

Guess what they are wearing?

J~ Baby blue basketball shorts with a orange and white stripe down the side, with a white shirt with a yellow truck on it, that has light grey sleeves with a dark blue stripe down it.

A~ Teal shorts that have pink and yellow flowers on it, and a white shirt with purple flowers on it.



Yeah, so I'm not leaving the house like this today. lol.

'A' Moment ~ My darling little princess...

My daughter is three, and sooo freaking cute I cannot stand it. Now just so you all know I have the cutest 4 1/2 year old son too that I love to death but this is going to be about Abby.

Just some of the things she does and says that have me rolling, or sometimes cringing:

Yesterday we are driving and the kids are in the backseat talking non stop as always when A starts to call for JD (my husband) so he gives her the attention she is so desperately wanting and she looks at him all cute and innocent and says "Daddy your fat." LOL! I almost died, I mean where did she get that from? And JD, having just gained a few extra pounds, gets all kinds of defensive. LOL, just imagine my grown husband arguing with my three year old daughter over weather or not he is fat, and where she got that he was from. Of course that blame lays on me, but I swear I never said anything to anyone about his weight. I SWEAR!

Now this happened awhile ago, maybe 3-4 months back, but I cannot resist telling you all about it anyway. You never really think things you say are bad until you hear children repeat it and then it doesn't sound so innocent. Take my favorite word FREAKIN', I tend to say that a lot. I mean it is better than F*ck right? So when I'm driving and get cut off..."Freaking A" when I get hurt "Ouch, Freakin Crap" you get the point right? Well let me give you a few examples of how my three year old picked up on my word and added it to her everyday use:

In the bathroom doing my make-up with A standing on the toilet lid putting on my make-up too...
Me: Ab what are you doing?
A: Putting on your lipstick.
Me: Okay don't lose the lid.
...a minute later
A: Mommy can you put the freakin lid on this lipstick!

JD walking in on Abby in the bathroom by herself...
JD: What are you doing?
A: Flushing the Freaking toilet.

A after she peed her pants at my moms all over the kitchen floor...
A (to herself): Now the freakin floor is wet.

A stubbing her toe...
A: Ouch, freaking ouch.

I mean I guess I should be proud she always uses the word in the right text. lol

And just today this happened. JD is sitting on the couch and A is on his lap. And just let me tell you I have a ton of freckles, so JD is looking at A and says "OMG A you have freckles popping up everywhere on you." A gets up walks upstairs to me and looks devastated. So I'm all "What's the matter baby." and she says almost in tears "Why are my freckles popping?" LOL, omg she had me rolling! Poor girl I had to explain that JD didn't mean her freckles were gonna pop but that she was just getting more of them.

I got my nails done the other day and got a bronze color and when I got home A looks at them and says "Mommy your nails are ugly, I like pink better." ha ha.

We stop at red lights and she actually talks to the people at the corner waiting to cross the street. She tells them where we are going what her name is. EVERYTHING! She is so not shy.

She is obsessed with boobs. She is always poking mine, and asking if she is going to get 'big' like me. Which isn't saying much being as I am only a B, but whatever, that's not the point. She does it to everyone! My cousin came over and she poked her and said "Are they your boobies?" And she asked me what I was wearing right after I put a bra on the other day so I told her what it is. Now all she wants is a bra.

So needless to say my little princess is very unique. And boy does she know how to get her way, every time she wants something or does something bad she says "mommy I love you your pretty your beautiful" as if it is all one long word. ha ha.

She always has to have her toe and finger nails painted, pink, but she loves to roll in the dirt and have fun. She'll pick up any bug, while wearing her favorite pink dress. Always in dress up heels or her favorite flip flops of the moment, and she has more than me.

My baby, my pretty smart princess. I swear she'll be the death of me one day. I don't even want to think about teenage years.