Friends

Are you a good friend?

Usually I tell people I'm not a great friend.

I mean I'm good in the sense that I will always love you always have your back never allow anyone to disrespect you or anything, and when it REALLY counts I am there. But bad in the way that I forget things (like random get together dates set up), don't call sometimes, get busy with my kids and work and not have time for you.

So I don't know, does that mean I'm good or bad? Or just normal?

I get annoyed at my friends though when I don't get a basic respect that I give. And I don't think that's to much to ask for. I give you my utmost respect and honesty all the time. Even if I totally forget I said I'd do something with you I will tell you that instead of lying to you.

So if I am mad at you I tell you. If I want to do something and it may or may not hurt your feelings? I'll tell you.

I don't sugar coat things, I'm blunt and straight to the point.

I'm a bitch sometimes but I think at the end of the day I'm pretty damn good to my friends. And I'm sick of finding out that I don't always give my friendship to deserving people. It's a waste of my fucking time.

So, this post doesn't really have an exact purpose. Nothing in particular happened. There have been random things going on with different people in my life lately and I just wanted to vent.

But I am interested in what you have to say. What is a true friend to you? Are you a good friend? Are you always honest or do you think there is nothing wrong with a little white lie every once in awhile?


~ Nicole

Rene you freaking ROCK!!!

Okay so I know it's dumb to get all excited over but.....I was making cream of wheat the other day and burnt the milk to the bottom of my pot. Now this is my favorite pot, besides this one I have my big pasta pots and my small one I boil tea water in. But this pot is the only one that is the perfect size to make cream of wheat or oatmeal in for the entire family. And I ruined it! I've been trying to scrub it and soak it in hot water for a few days. So when I was on the phone with Rene today she told me to put some water in the pot with dishsoap and boil it for like 10 min. And guess what???? It freaking worked! So again RENE YOU FREAKING ROCK! lol.

Something else kinda related....I found out while talking to Rene. She's never had Cream of Wheat. Is this common? My family eats it all the time, I always had it on cold mornings growing up. So how bout you? Cream of Wheat? Oatmeal??? What was your breakfasts growing up?

~ Nicole

Awwww....

I have this friend that I've know for about a year I'd say. And she is an aspiring author. Well she actually has a book coming out in February, so I guess she IS an author. She is so talented and I just love her writing and her. Well as I'm sure I've said plenty of times before, I'm not the best friend a girl could hope for. I don't keep in contact with people all that often. I'm there then I'm not. And I don't do it on purpose I just forget. ALOT! But this friend is great. I recently went to her blog and read some of her stuff and it just reminded me of how great a person she is and how excited I am for her books to come out. And then I see this little link that says Friends Pages so I click.....and I'm on it! I'm number four (guess who's first! Rene Lyons, bitch! lol, love you!) so anyway....I just think it's great that although I'm there one day then not the next and I'm not the best kind of friend, she never forgets me and is always including me! So here it is a great big THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU to TAMI BOYER!!!
Go here for here for her website
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here for her blogs
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here for her friends pages...
You rock Tami, love you girl!!!

(You know I love you too Holly, Dylan, Izzy and Rene. This is just a special shout out cause I talk to you gals daily and not so much with Tami.)

~ Nicole

The Whiskey Tango

Saturday I'm off to work, 9am to 4pm, not a bad schedule with a retail job. About half way through my shift Josh calls and says he's taking the kids to his moms. Cool, a kid free night.

So after work a friend says her and her boyfriend are going out that night and since we don't have the kids why don't we come. Well Jamie and I have been friends for awhile and while I've met her boyfriend and she's met Josh the two of the guys have never met.

Now Josh doesn't always do good with new people. He is very out going and fun with his group of friends but put him with people he doesn't know? Sometimes you'll hear crickets. But damn it we wanted to go out. So I talked Josh into going, not only was he meeting Jamie's boyfriend for the fist time but about 7 other people that neither of us knew.

Let me just tell you that I ended up puking all over the parking lot at TWT and all over my friends car when this night ends.......want to hear all the juicy details? Well at least the ones I remember??? Okay your dragging it out of me.

We met over one of the people's house that I didn't know and had some pizza and drinks. Now I'm not a big drinker cause I don't know much about drinks. I like something I can't really taste the alcohol in. So I was hooked up with some Citrus Vodka mixed with Crystal Lite, you know gotta watch my carbs, lol. OMG I loved it, so before I know it an hour and and half have passed and I've drank at least 5 big cups of this stuff (I lost count after that). We played a card game called fuck the dealer, and I was drinking even when I was winning. lol.

We all get ready to go to the bar and I started to realize I am feeling a little ummmmm....not sober. But hell I'm having a good time.

We get to the bar and I order the same as my friend, like I said I'm not good with drinks. It was either a Captain and ginger, or something else and ginger, but all I know is it tasted like cream soda so I was loving it. So after this I'm just going to tell you I had four of those drinks and here are the random things I remember, in no particular order:

Dancing with five guys, and one girl. Sometimes one on one sometimes all at the same time.

Stealing other peoples straws out of their cups cause mine kept disappearing. I swear they were stealing my straws all night. Then somehow I ended up with like five of them.

Pulling the front of my shirt down and saying I have no boobs. Then getting some money give to Josh which he then put down my shirt and I threw at Jamie.

Grabbing my husbands 'junk' quite a few times on the dance floor.

Calling some girls skinny bitches.

Smacking my head on the stall door in the bathroom.

Drunk calling my brother and Holly.

Crying over some family issue.

Telling my friends boyfriend he needed to buy her an engagement ring.

Knocking over a few peoples drinks.

Puking in the parking lot.

Puking all over the outside of my friends truck, and it flew back inside on Josh. It also got all over my hair, ewwww. And I was later told that at a red light some old guy was laughing at me puking.

Striping naked as I walked from my door to my bed (which it's a total black hole how I got from the car to the door.)

And guess what? I felt not so bad this morning! I actually woke up and went to work, no headache at all. Just felt queasy all day.

Good times, good times. Next Saturday I'm going out again. Hey this is pretty fun! I should have done this awhile ago.

Well here I am....**Edited**

**This post is now edited to add a bit more light on why I've come clean, lol. The new info is on the very bottom in blod**

Okay so as you can all see I've changed up my blog template. Wanted something a bit darker for the change of season. And it just seems to fit me now. Anywoo, I am in the mood for more changes...Sooooo

I'm coming out of the closet. lol, no not THAT closet, silly. Just keep reading....

When I first started this blog, I was new to anything blog related. I didn't really even want a personal blog. I was just going to be posting book reviews with the other Sanctuary's Finest girls. But they insisted, and I admit now to getting sucked into Blogland and loving it.

I had a 'fake' name because the other girls did and I didn't think twice about it. At the time I wasn't so sure that I wanted my kids names and husbands on here. I don't know why, except at the time it felt like a privacy thing.

But it's gotten to be a bit much. With making my husband JD my son J and daughter A. So let me reintroduce them all to you. My husband is Josh (I got JD cause his middle name starts with a D), my son's name is Jordon, and my daughter is Abigail (we call her that and Abby). And I........am Nicole.

I have always gone by the name Nicole and nothing else. Actually my grandmom and a few aunts and cousins and uncles, oh forget it EVERYONE on my dad's side calls me Nikki. But it just seems to fit cause they're on my Puerto Rican side and with the accent they say it with it flowed. But nobody else.

I've always liked the way it is spelled though, Nikki. So when I started to hang on the net on message boards I used Nikki as a sign on. I mean I wasn't talking to these people just typing with them so it wouldn't sound strange being called Nikki. Oh was I wrong. A few months after posting on this one message board me and Holly started to IM then we talked on the phone a few times. It was so weird at first but now I am finally used to her and my other friends calling me Nikki. So what do you all call me? Whatever you want. I get called Nikki by lots of online friends, Nicks by Holly and Dylan and Nicole by everyone else.

Quick side story real quick. One of the first times Holly called me Josh answered the phone and she asked to speak to Nikki. Well like I said, nobody calls me that, so he said sorry you have the wrong number. She thought he was joking with her and laughed it off.....till she heard the dial tone. LMAO!!! Then when I told him that it was a friend and she calls me that he was all "WHY?". ha ha.

So this is it. I'm Nicole or whatever else you call me. Just not mean names. I don't consider Bitch a mean name just for the record. lol....

So what do you think???

(My kids a gorgeous yes, but I'm still not comfortable with posting their pictures yet. But we'll see what the future holds on that note. But if your ever interested in their funny stories go to the side bar and click on some of the J&A Moments.)

Edited portion: Don't get your hopes up it really isn't a big deal. The only real reason I have that may have played a part in my name and all coming out is all the shit that went down last week. Most of you know, Drake if you don't ask and I'll give you links, about all the drama. And then there was a million people posting as Anon, which has always annoyed me. Then I was trying to stand up for myself but I was known as one person there and a different one here. Also when I email, friends from blogland, authors about books, and anything else I have to explain that I am in fact NOT Jazz but Nicole. And on and on. It just seems to be a lot easier to be just me. And I also now feel a lot more comfortable with all of you, and therefore don't mind putting myself out there. So there it is. Good Drake? lol. Let me know if you have anymore questions.

I got something new!!

Active Meter. It's pretty cool. So now even if I'm not getting comments I can still see who is coming to my page. I like! ha ha ha. Not that I really know how to do much with it yet, but that's what Holly is for. I know nothing about all this stuff. Like I want to change the way my blog looks and it just kills me when people are like "Oh you just blah blah blah, yak yak yak." Yeah, right, that's exactly what I hear while they are rambling off. This morning that is exactly what happened when I was on the phone with Rene. She's all you just.....and I go "Why did you just say that like it was supposed to make sense to me and be all easy and I have no clue what you are even talking about?" LMAO! But, meh, whatever. That's what I have all my bitches for. To hook me up. Yup, that's you Holly, Dylan, and even Rene now.

What I really think of my Blog Friends...

Okay I took this blog quiz thing and here are my results. Don't know how true I think some of them are, but hey.....

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Holly is your soulmate.

You truly love La Chou.

You consider Zeek your true friend.

You know that Izzy is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Rene for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Kelley is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Dylan is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Drake is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Drake changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Mailyn is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Mailyn has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

He tries to pretend but it just doesn' t work

I'm talking about my husband here. The other day I am leaving and so he was about to hop on the computer. So before he did I went to X out of all my screens; a bored I post on, this blog, my other blog, and my email. Well he gets all agitated and is like "why are you X'ing out of everything? What don't you want me to see?" So I'm like "You can read my blog, I don't care. But I'm signing out so you can't post anything pretending to be me." (He's done it before, ask Holly, and my other SF girls.)

So I leave and when I come home he doesn't mention anything. Till a couple hours later he's all, "So I like that picture you have of me on your blog. People said I'm cute." I laugh and say "Well you are." So he proceeds to ask about each person that said he was cute, including La Chou, and Dylan. So the questions die down till he said "Who's that guy that always posts on your blog?" Me, "Who? Drake? DC?" Him, "Yeah, I guess. He said he was afraid he lost you." Me, "Don't be retarded, he just reads my blog and I read his. I wasn't posting for awhile and so he wanted to know what was up, and that he missed me." Him, "Yeah, okay." Later I found out he went and read your blog Drake, just to see what it was about. He was just curious. Yeah, uh-huh, right! But you know what? I like that. I like that he wants to know who is talking to me and who I talk to. It shows interest, you know? And no worries DC I told him me and you are just cool blogging buddies, right!

But now he mentions it here and there. Like tonight...he'd been hinting all day/evening that he wanted some....you know. lol. So after I put the kids to bed I was online applying for jobs and stuff and then I went upstairs. I cuddled up and of course one thing led to another and we're getting it on on the couch. It's a pretty heavy couch; leather, sofa bed. Well however later we're done and he looks up and says "OMG you have to see this, look." So I turn and we had moved the couch 2 1/2 feet away from it original position (he measured)! So we have our little laugh over it and he goes "Your gonna blog on this aren't you." lol! Me "You know it!"

And he says he's not interested in my blog....LIAR!!!



And this is the couch we were on, the one with the white blanket on it.

Just for the record.

I am not a crazy person! Sometime between now and Monday Holly may be posting a blog saying some wacky things about me, but I swear, I'm not crazy. Yes I may have been a little over excited about finding J.R.Ward's Lover Awakened at Walmart but again, I'm not crazy! I swear. Yes I *might* have yelled (just a bit, and quietly) when I saw it on the shelf, and done a little jump (really it was barely noticeable) but again, I'm not crazy. And even though I argued with the guy in Borders Express because he had 8 copies in the back and wouldn't sell me one since it's not the release date, I'm not crazy. And lastly even though tomorrow I will be going back to Borders Express and showing the stupid guy the book that I did get even tough it isn't the release date yet. I'M NOT CRAZY! So there.....

A link to my girl with a little added to it.....Porn - yay or nay.

So my girl Holly posted this blog up and I wanna expound on it a bit. She asks what you think of porn. Yay, nay? What's your thoughts?

Well I also wanna know. First do you think it's an okay thing? Do you dislike it if others watch it? Do you have a preference, you know like the kind you order on TV where they 'pretend' to do things but never really do. Or the live porn stuff that you see mostly online. And how bout pictures vs. videos? Or even stories, it's basically the same thing.

So basically I'm asking the same things as Holly but just a little more in depth.

Me? I'll admit the truth, I look at it online occasionally, I'd prefer to read it though. I don't know why. I think I just like to imagine it myself more. I'd prefer my husband not look at it, but I'm not stupid I know he does on occasion. I know it's a double standard to say I do but don't want him to. But somehow (sexist or not) I think a girl can look at it every once in awhile and whatever. But a guy? I think they get addicted. And I feel like if he's looking at that then being with me .... well I sure as hell don't look like the porn stars, so is he picturing someone else? Give me info on this guys!

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