What kind of donut are you?

Stole this from Mailyn who got it from Kristy (J) who got it from I don't know. lol.

You Are a Boston Creme Donut

You have a tough exterior. No one wants to mess with you. But on the inside, you're a total pushover and completely soft. You're a traditionalist, and you don't change easily. You're likely to eat the same doughnut every morning, and pout if it's sold out.

What Donut Are You?

Okay how funny is it that this is my favorite donut! I don't eat them often but it is so true that if I do get in the mood for one and they don't have a Boston creme? WATCH OUT!!! lol... So be warned...
Oh but one part is totally wrong....I AM NOT A PUSHOVER EVER!!!

Well here I am....**Edited**

**This post is now edited to add a bit more light on why I've come clean, lol. The new info is on the very bottom in blod**

Okay so as you can all see I've changed up my blog template. Wanted something a bit darker for the change of season. And it just seems to fit me now. Anywoo, I am in the mood for more changes...Sooooo

I'm coming out of the closet. lol, no not THAT closet, silly. Just keep reading....

When I first started this blog, I was new to anything blog related. I didn't really even want a personal blog. I was just going to be posting book reviews with the other Sanctuary's Finest girls. But they insisted, and I admit now to getting sucked into Blogland and loving it.

I had a 'fake' name because the other girls did and I didn't think twice about it. At the time I wasn't so sure that I wanted my kids names and husbands on here. I don't know why, except at the time it felt like a privacy thing.

But it's gotten to be a bit much. With making my husband JD my son J and daughter A. So let me reintroduce them all to you. My husband is Josh (I got JD cause his middle name starts with a D), my son's name is Jordon, and my daughter is Abigail (we call her that and Abby). And I........am Nicole.

I have always gone by the name Nicole and nothing else. Actually my grandmom and a few aunts and cousins and uncles, oh forget it EVERYONE on my dad's side calls me Nikki. But it just seems to fit cause they're on my Puerto Rican side and with the accent they say it with it flowed. But nobody else.

I've always liked the way it is spelled though, Nikki. So when I started to hang on the net on message boards I used Nikki as a sign on. I mean I wasn't talking to these people just typing with them so it wouldn't sound strange being called Nikki. Oh was I wrong. A few months after posting on this one message board me and Holly started to IM then we talked on the phone a few times. It was so weird at first but now I am finally used to her and my other friends calling me Nikki. So what do you all call me? Whatever you want. I get called Nikki by lots of online friends, Nicks by Holly and Dylan and Nicole by everyone else.

Quick side story real quick. One of the first times Holly called me Josh answered the phone and she asked to speak to Nikki. Well like I said, nobody calls me that, so he said sorry you have the wrong number. She thought he was joking with her and laughed it off.....till she heard the dial tone. LMAO!!! Then when I told him that it was a friend and she calls me that he was all "WHY?". ha ha.

So this is it. I'm Nicole or whatever else you call me. Just not mean names. I don't consider Bitch a mean name just for the record. lol....

So what do you think???

(My kids a gorgeous yes, but I'm still not comfortable with posting their pictures yet. But we'll see what the future holds on that note. But if your ever interested in their funny stories go to the side bar and click on some of the J&A Moments.)

Edited portion: Don't get your hopes up it really isn't a big deal. The only real reason I have that may have played a part in my name and all coming out is all the shit that went down last week. Most of you know, Drake if you don't ask and I'll give you links, about all the drama. And then there was a million people posting as Anon, which has always annoyed me. Then I was trying to stand up for myself but I was known as one person there and a different one here. Also when I email, friends from blogland, authors about books, and anything else I have to explain that I am in fact NOT Jazz but Nicole. And on and on. It just seems to be a lot easier to be just me. And I also now feel a lot more comfortable with all of you, and therefore don't mind putting myself out there. So there it is. Good Drake? lol. Let me know if you have anymore questions.

Why is it such a bad thing???

Okay so over the weekend my husband had gone to Atlantic City for a Bachelor party. He left Friday at about 4pm and got home at 1:30am. Didn't even spend then night. Well I had no illusions about what he was going to be doing. They ate, gambled (Which I'm thankful for since he came home and was only $6 short of what he went with. YEAY!) drank, walked around and went to a strip club.

Now let me just say when I got married Josh (yes I'm tired of my abbreviations, his name is Josh not J. lol) did not have a bachelor party. Well not in the true sense, he didn't have a stripper or anything, there wasn't even really drinking. He was 19, I was 18. And I don't regret it either, I mean even if we were older. For some reason I don't mind him going to strip clubs for others bachelor parties but I would have been bothered by him going prior to our wedding day with a bunch of guys.

But back to the story...

Of course I gave him a hard time about it. Not him going just about what he'd do at the strip club. I told him that he was NOT allowed a lap dance. My thinking is touching is cheating, look all you want. But also he doesn't get any for three days after going to a strip club, which I got that from Holly (thanks girl). lol. So any way, they go have a good time, and that's the end of it.

Well during the day that he was in AC I had lunch with my aunt (she's only 4 years older than me) and her two kids. So we're talking and I say how Josh is going to AC and he better be good and all. You know, just jokes. I trust my husband.

Today my aunt called me and jokingly says "so was Josh good?" me, "yeah, ha ha ha." her, "no strippers?" me, "oh there were strippers, there just wasn't a lap dance." her, "WHAT??? You allow that? Nicole." (yes I said Nicole, that's my real name and I will be using that, stay tuned for a post on the why's and details...) and I'm all "What? I don't care if he goes blah blah blah." basically she was shocked that I was okay with him going to a strip club. I'm all it's not a everyday event! I mean sheesh, I let him go when there are bachelor parties. What's the big deal?

What are your thoughts on this? Would you allow your husband to go?

When Josh and I have been in AC together, we've joked about going together. We never really went cause I think he thought I was joking. But really???? I'd go. Why not?

Would you??? Am I strange for wanting to go with him? I've never been. Shouldn't I know what he's seeing when he's there?

Brothers and Sisters

This show better stay on the air! Brothers and Sisters had me laughing, on the edge of my seat, mad, crying EVERYTHING. I think this show has a ton of potential. But if you go and read the Bloggers and Sisters you'll see the show actually had some hard times getting up and running. With casting and re-shooting. But I'm just glad it's on.
They have one gay brother, which believe it or not, I'm glad about. I really like to see it play out in this big family. Especially since one of the sisters is very into politics and is very conservative. But she loves him still and I don't really see an issue with them. But that sister and the mother really head butt a lot. There's the brother that went off to war and is now suffering issues from that. Then there is the oldest sister that is married with two kids and is having marriage problems. They are going to counseling and all. I am really into that plot line (no comment). There is the other brother that I think is into something with the Uncle in the family business that's not right. Then she finds out their father is somehow involved. The father dies at the end of the show, he has a heart attack and falls into the pool there for drowning. Oh and the political sister? Yeah, so far I think her boyfriend is a pompous ass, we'll see how long he's around. But I really like the show. High hopes everyone, high hopes. It comes on abc on Sundays at 10pm. WATCH IT!!!

I got something new!!

Active Meter. It's pretty cool. So now even if I'm not getting comments I can still see who is coming to my page. I like! ha ha ha. Not that I really know how to do much with it yet, but that's what Holly is for. I know nothing about all this stuff. Like I want to change the way my blog looks and it just kills me when people are like "Oh you just blah blah blah, yak yak yak." Yeah, right, that's exactly what I hear while they are rambling off. This morning that is exactly what happened when I was on the phone with Rene. She's all you just.....and I go "Why did you just say that like it was supposed to make sense to me and be all easy and I have no clue what you are even talking about?" LMAO! But, meh, whatever. That's what I have all my bitches for. To hook me up. Yup, that's you Holly, Dylan, and even Rene now.

Grey's Anatomy ~ Season Premeir

Just a little run down of my most favorite show EVER! Grey's Anatomy!!!!! Wooo hoooo. So let's get started...

Callie~ Last season I didn't like her at all, this season, I was liking her!
Don't know why, but as soon as George and her kissed I started to gag again. I can't get used to that, it looks sooo gross! Eww, don't know why, but yeah, gross.

McVet~ Bye-bye! Uggg, he wasn't even romancing at all in his little speach. Dork! And he is so not cute! Not in a McDreamy way anyway.

Izzy~ Meh, I was never feeling the Denny thing. Sorry. So no comment.
Especially not going to get into her freak out last season when trying to get him to take the heart. Ummm, no. You trying to tell me that a woman that grew up in a trailer park, modeled for money to get through medical school, and gave up her daughter cause she couldn't raise her right would throw everything away for a man?

Addison~ I will never feel sorry for her! She can get with someone else and maybe I'll cheer her on but not with Derek. She cheated WITH HIS BEST FRIEND, so she lost the right to him.
And it sucks but I am thinking she'll end up being pregnant and Derek may not leave her. I hope not, but we'll see.

Meredith~ If she doesn't choose Derek I might have to smack her. Nuff said.

Christina~ I love her but was I the only one that laughed when she cried? I mean the sentiment was sweet and all but she's just not a good crier. lol.

Baily~ I don't know what was up with her. Maybe she was over emotional because of Denny dying. But I'm sure we'll get our bitching Baily back soon.

DEREK~ "You have a choice to make. Take all the time you need, cause you have a choice and when I had a choice I chose wrong." OMG I love him!!!!

I am soooo looking forward to this season! Burke and Christina next week? HOT! Looks sooo funny. Meredith's underwear getting pinned to the bulletin board? FUNNY! Goodness, I am sooo glad this show is back. How did I get through the summer? It's a wonder.

So what other shows are you all watching or looking forward to? I started to watch Prison Break for the first time, it's alright. Also Vanished, also okay. Hmmm, I can't wait for The OC and One Tree Hill. And I think I might watch ER this year. Oh and Till Death? Pretty funny so far, and whenever I'm home with J I watch The Office with him, and Survivor. Weeew, that's a lot, huh? lol.

(sorry no pics, blogger is being retarded...AGAIN!)

What's up with me?

So I have nothing to blog about today or yesterday or the day before that for any matter. But I missed you all so I figured what the heck, I'll just ramble for a bit.
So what's been going on with me? Hmmm, well yesterday Renee came over my house! Yup our very own Rene Lyons, gotta lover her. Her little girl is soooo cute, OMG I feel in love, and A loved her. J too, but her and A? What a pair. Rene is soooo freaking sweet, and her major plus???? SHE HAS PERFECT EYEBROWS. Yes I said eyebrows. Hey, don't think I'm weird! Everyone has that one thing they notice first when meeting a person, and eyebrows just happen to be my thing. So I'm all kinds of jealous of hers, they are PERFECT, no joke.
I got banned off a board. I am not kidding. Dylan had posted some questions on JR Wards board about her books. You know, how there are some gay undertones in her book and she didn't think the slang fit the persona of the characters. Stuff like that. But OMG they tore her up. So I went to defend my girl.....and now we're both banned from there. ha ha ah. Check our book blog Sanctuary's Finest with in the week to read all about it, from me, Dylan and Holly. It'll be great.
A is dancing. And OMG she is soooo cute, and she loves it. It is only for an hour once a week. I wish it were more cause every day she asks 'mommy do I have dance today?'. lol.
Next Friday I go on J's first school trip! Yeay, I asked him if he wanted me to go and he said yes. Sooooo I'm going. Now you'd think I'd be all kinds of excited about this but really I'm not. I mean yeah, it'll be fun to go with my son, but I'll be in charge of 4 kids total. I don't like other peoples kids! Soooo true. For some reason I have no tolerance for them. So I'll have to keep you posted on how that goes.
My husband just got a BIG raise!!! Soooo happy about that. He actually got offered a job for another company doing the same thing but he'd be a manager instead of a supervisor. Well when he told his boss they counteroffer. So we're all happy now. Sice the company he is with now has always been good to us and he has seniority there and all.
Me? I'm still stuck in my job I hate. Uggg, but I kinda don't want to leave till after Christmas. I mean I know it'll get more stressful and all but I love the busyness around the holidays. Not to mention the commission check will be huge.

Well that's it on me for now. What's going on with all you? Have any ideas on things I can post on? I'm having such a block right now.

Oh Jesus it hurts!

Okay I really don't even have time to post right now but I just had to pop in here and tell you what I did to my poor hand just 20 minutes ago.

I went to pick something up at a friends house and when I went to leave I realized I couldn't buckle myself. I had shut the door on my seat belt. So I open the door to pull the seat belt up and shut the door. Only one problem.....

My hand was holding the seat belt up so high it was acually in the doors way. I crushed my hand, MY ENTIRE FIST, in the door. In my FORD EXPLORER DOOR! Oh good Lord it hurt. As soon as I did it I was like "*!@ GOD! Oh Jesus..." and A goes "Mommy why are you saying Jesus?"

Now I'm the tpye of person when I'm in pain I cannot have any noise. Yeah, you should have seen me in the labor and delivery room, that's a funny story! But I digress. So I say "Quiet quiet baby, mommy just needs to pray for a little bit." Then I proceeded with "Jesus, Jesus, Oh goodness it hurts..." You know normal cryin'. I had to tell my kids I was praying cause I was saying Jesus, which technically I was. Praying for the pain to stop.

It's not so horribly bad now. But I know I'm gonna be bruised. Ouch!

What I really think of my Blog Friends...

Okay I took this blog quiz thing and here are my results. Don't know how true I think some of them are, but hey.....

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Holly is your soulmate.

You truly love La Chou.

You consider Zeek your true friend.

You know that Izzy is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Rene for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Kelley is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Dylan is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Drake is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Drake changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Mailyn is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Mailyn has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

Absolutly nothing to blog about...sooooo

Random Blogthings...

Hmmm, buried alive??? Pretty freaky if you ask me. Glad I don't remember that life. lol.

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Charming Despot. Where You Lived: New Zealand. How You Died: Buried alive.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

Okay debating? YES! Forgien Languages? I know not one! lol.

You Are a Auditory Learner

You tend to remember what you hear, and you have a knack for speaking well. You excel at debating, foreign languages, and music. You would be an excellent diplomat - or rock star!

What's Your Learning Style?

Well this is of no suprise. I've never entertained any ideas that I was shy. Hope none of you did either. ha ha.

You Are 4% Shy

You aren't shy at all, in fact, you're probably quite outgoing. You are comfortable in almost any social situation, no matter how difficult.

How Shy Are You?

I am woman hear me ROAR. lol. I am all kinds of powerful, and you all know it now.

Your Power Level is: 68%

You're a very powerful person, and you know that all of your power comes from within. Keep on doing what you're doing, and you'll reach your goals.

How Powerful Are You?

I have no comment. I am a perfect driver....What? I swear!

Your Driving Is is: 50% Male, 50% Female

According to studies, you drive both like a guy and a girl. This means you're a pretty average driver, with typical quirks. Occasionally you're frustrated and or a little reckless, but that's the exception - not the norm.

Do You Drive Like a Guy or a Girl?

Well I hope so! I already married him! Sheesh...

What You Know About Your Guy: Practically Everything

You have gotten to know your man really well From his hopes and dreams to favorite things... You definitely have enough info to figure out if he's *the* guy In fact, you may know him a little better than you know yourself

How Well Do You Know Your Man?

He tries to pretend but it just doesn' t work

I'm talking about my husband here. The other day I am leaving and so he was about to hop on the computer. So before he did I went to X out of all my screens; a bored I post on, this blog, my other blog, and my email. Well he gets all agitated and is like "why are you X'ing out of everything? What don't you want me to see?" So I'm like "You can read my blog, I don't care. But I'm signing out so you can't post anything pretending to be me." (He's done it before, ask Holly, and my other SF girls.)

So I leave and when I come home he doesn't mention anything. Till a couple hours later he's all, "So I like that picture you have of me on your blog. People said I'm cute." I laugh and say "Well you are." So he proceeds to ask about each person that said he was cute, including La Chou, and Dylan. So the questions die down till he said "Who's that guy that always posts on your blog?" Me, "Who? Drake? DC?" Him, "Yeah, I guess. He said he was afraid he lost you." Me, "Don't be retarded, he just reads my blog and I read his. I wasn't posting for awhile and so he wanted to know what was up, and that he missed me." Him, "Yeah, okay." Later I found out he went and read your blog Drake, just to see what it was about. He was just curious. Yeah, uh-huh, right! But you know what? I like that. I like that he wants to know who is talking to me and who I talk to. It shows interest, you know? And no worries DC I told him me and you are just cool blogging buddies, right!

But now he mentions it here and there. Like tonight...he'd been hinting all day/evening that he wanted some....you know. lol. So after I put the kids to bed I was online applying for jobs and stuff and then I went upstairs. I cuddled up and of course one thing led to another and we're getting it on on the couch. It's a pretty heavy couch; leather, sofa bed. Well however later we're done and he looks up and says "OMG you have to see this, look." So I turn and we had moved the couch 2 1/2 feet away from it original position (he measured)! So we have our little laugh over it and he goes "Your gonna blog on this aren't you." lol! Me "You know it!"

And he says he's not interested in my blog....LIAR!!!



And this is the couch we were on, the one with the white blanket on it.

Sanctuary's Finest...: SF Contest: LOVER AWAKENED!

Click on this link and go compete to win your FREE copy of Lover Awakened!!! OMG it's the best book. If you've heard of it you know, if you haven't. Well you better get on it. lol. But really...a free book? Get moving.

Sanctuary's Finest...: SF Contest: LOVER AWAKENED!#links#links#links

He's leaving me!

Okay don't freak out, I'm not talking about my husband. Or at least I don't think he's leaving me. lol. But my baby! My little J, he's going to Kindergarten tomorrow! I don't know how I'm going to handle it! I am really going to try not to cry but I think I might just break down, at least I can promise not to do it in front of J. But my goodness, I swear I never thought this day would come so fast. I'm so scared. He's taking the bus. What if he won't get on? What if he gets on but won't get off? Who will help him? I won't be there. For goodness sake the teacher is going to be holding a blue balloon, how the heck is he supposed to remember that in the craziness of being on a new bus with no one he knows??? I am so scared. Oh wait I said that. Well I AM!!!! What if he gets nervous and doesn't talk to anyone, what if a kid picks on him and he doesn't tell me so I can do something about it??? Please help calm me. Am I being totally whacked??? Is this a normal reaction for parents??? OMG I'm a nut case. I gotta go. I have to go try and sleep. OMG I'm a wreck!

I just love this...

I stole this little picture from Holly. How funny is this!

Just for the record.

I am not a crazy person! Sometime between now and Monday Holly may be posting a blog saying some wacky things about me, but I swear, I'm not crazy. Yes I may have been a little over excited about finding J.R.Ward's Lover Awakened at Walmart but again, I'm not crazy! I swear. Yes I *might* have yelled (just a bit, and quietly) when I saw it on the shelf, and done a little jump (really it was barely noticeable) but again, I'm not crazy. And even though I argued with the guy in Borders Express because he had 8 copies in the back and wouldn't sell me one since it's not the release date, I'm not crazy. And lastly even though tomorrow I will be going back to Borders Express and showing the stupid guy the book that I did get even tough it isn't the release date yet. I'M NOT CRAZY! So there.....